I have no desire to be in a book that I've written. I don't want a literary analyst to read something I have written and then draw conclusions about my views on gender, race, power, class, etc. I don't want someone to write a column about the parallels in my love life and the romance in the book or the effect of own marital dynamics upon the relationship of Prince Bortle and Princess Burguli in my 3rd novel . I don't even like revealing my fantasies to others, be they romantic, adventure, etc. It's my life and my fantasies. You've got your own; leave mine alone. (That last sentence makes a nice chant for a protest march though.)
This may sound very strange since I maintain this blog where I talk about my life, my politics, my vacations, and even the food I eat. But none of that is particularly personal -- in some way I don't quite understand. I do know that I write things as pacatrue that I wouldn't write under my own name, even though most of you can look my real name up quite easily if you don't already know it. Being "pacatrue" establishes an identity as a blogger.
I was thinking about this again because of a post on EE about pennames. The ideal pen name for me would be something like... saki. (H.R. Munro, the short story writer). Is saki Finnish, Iranian, Japanese, something else? Male, female? The name doesn't tell you. You just have to read the story and decide if you like it or not on its own merits. No debates about whether a man can write from a woman's POV, whether a person of one ethnicity can write about a character of another ethnicity, etc.
Just leave me alone and read the book if you want to.
But this desire for privacy limits me, I know. One's life and dreams are the greatest inspiration a writer has, so to choose to bottle it up because they're mine, mine, mine surely prevents me from writing some things that might be of interest. And while I long for privacy, I am well aware that every character I've ever written is some version of the ideas and beliefs in my head.
It's all a big mess and I can't untangle it. In general, I like anonymity; just send the check in my name please.